Weighed in last saturday and lost 1lb, was very dis-heartened, if I am honest. This led to a week of bingeing and self sabotage, resulting in a 3lb weight gain, yesterday at weigh in. I cannot even begin to tell you what I have eaten, as the thought of it DISGUSTS me! I have had an incredibly stressful week at work and rather than be compassionate to my anxieties, I, of course, fed them, making myself feel even worse. Exercise went out of the window too.
Well, today is a new day and a start of a new week. I intend to get of this hamster wheel and start being kind to myself…..I want this! I want to be healthy, slimmer, fitter, happier and be able to actually like what I see. I am not naive in thinking, if I am slimmer all will be well, yet I feel my confidence and self esteem will improve… surely?!
I have started the online course ‘Beyond Chocolate’, lesson 1 complete. The course is based on ‘not dieting and building a healthy relationship with food’. So far, I have basically learnt what I already know, however, it has got me thinking more…. Not that I need to think anymore about food eh!… yet, in a different way. I am going to plod on and if I get one thing out of it, then that is a positive.
JawBone….. Note to self… CHARGE IT UP!
“It is not revolutions and upheavals that clear the road to better days,
but revelations, and lavishness of someone’s soul inspired, and ablaze“—Boris Pasternak